Soul Song

Earlier this week I made a fb comment that souls should have theme songs. When asked what mine would be at first, I couldn't think of any. But then it hit me that since the thought came to me while listening to OneRepublic's "Come Home," then according to Freudian logic, that would probably be my soul's theme song. And incidentally, it fits this stage of my life.

And yet, the way the song fits probably isn't the way you are thinking. For those who aren't familiar with the words, I'll post them below. However, basically, the narrating voice is calling home his/her beloved who seems to be off doing his or her own thing, looking for something. In this song, my soul's theme song, I'm not the one doing the calling. I'm the one wanting, waiting to be called. Much of the time I'm content to be wandering, but I admit, I miss having a home, having a someone. While I like change and movement, I would also like to be more settled, to feel like I actually belong somewhere. I feel like as much as I wander, I'm actually looking for a place where I can see myself creating strong ties, becoming one with the people.

And then of course, the deeper connotations of home ring true too. Home isn't just a place, it's the people you share it with. I live in a house with my family, but it's not my home. It's a blessing, but it's not ME or for ME. And I miss this. I long for my own place which I can decorate, a place where I can play hostess, where I can build a life of my choosing.

Maybe somewhere, someone is waiting for me like I'm waiting for them. Maybe there calling my name right now and I just can't hear it. It doesn't matter. What matters is that there is a home for me, and one day I will enter it.


"Come Home" by OneRepublic

[Verse 1]
Hello world
Hope you're listening
Forgive me if I’m young
For speaking out of turn
There’s someone I’ve been missing
I think that they could be
The better half of me
They’re in the wrong place trying to make it right
But I’m tired of justifying
So I say to you..

[Chorus]
Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all I see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
So come home
Oh

[Verse 2]
I get lost in the beauty
Of everything I see
The world ain’t as half as bad
As they paint it to be
If all the sons
If all the daughters
Stopped to take it in
Well hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin
It might start now..Yeah
Well maybe I’m just dreaming out loud
Until then

[Chorus]
Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all I see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
Ever known
So come home
Oh

[Interlude]
Everything I can’t be
Is everything you should be
And that’s why I need you here
Everything I can’t be
Is everything you should be
And that’s why I need you here
So hear this now

[Chorus]
Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all I see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
Ever known
So come home
Come home